The Tragedy At The End Of The Book.

17th May

Today I woke up quite early. Eh kepalahotakkaupunyaearly. 10.30 early ape kejadahnya.

Bangun then mandi - mandi. My plan for today was to go to Sec 7. Lepak bersama mereka.

Masa nak keluar, bapak aku tanya.

"nk g mane?"

"sec 7."

"watpe?"

"jmpe kwn."

"along ckp nk g sunway?"

"wtf?"

"eh mane de."

"jgn nk pndai2 g sunway sorg2. I'm still not confident enough about you driving alone."

Fuck.

Pagi lagi dah jk. Thanks along. Kau memang TERBAEK! ~_~ Tah bile mase aku cakap nak pegi sunway HARINI. Haih.

Sedih. JK. Damn. This feeling. Bila find out your own parents tak yakin dengan anak sendiri. Dengan anda. This is not the only thing yang diorang tak yakin dengan aku.

Rasa macam... Haih..Am I that screwed up? Am I that hopeless? Am I that useless?

But I kept smiling. I knew at the end of the day, she'll be there to take this JK-ness away. =)

So aku drive with my sister next to me. Drive sampai section 7. Then drop my sister dekat kedai Pakli. Tunggu pakwe die pikap pulak.

Then ingat nak cari sticker P. Karang kalau kantoi dengan atok misai, tak pasal2 je kene mata demerit. No way man.

Park kereta, off engine, bukak pintu, tutup pintu, tekan alarm, jalan ke kedai.

*check wallet*

*sees RM2*

"ko nk bli ape dgn RM2 ni nep?"

Fuck.

Tekan alarm, buka pintu, tutup pintu, start engine, pasang seatbelt.

"chill ah nep.. dari kemuning drive sampai 7 takde sekor pon atok misai. ko nak tkot pe.. lek sudey"

So I decided to go to Ayee's house.

"woi."

"aa"

"ko bru bgn ke ape sia.."

"ye ah..haha.."

"damn..aku nk anta cd.."

"oh..ko ltak je la lam mailbox.."

Fuck. Nk jmpe membe pon susah ke sia. Bangun la! TAT.

After dropping the cd in the mailbox(f u ayee), I called Fammy. Fammy was also sleeping. TAPI MEMBE PUNYE HAL DIE SANGGUP BANGUN BAI! ( F U AYEE!)

A few minutes later I arrived in front of Fammy's house. Masuk, lepak jap, dota sehelai ( fuck kalah ) , blablabla then tengok heroes jap. Then Azam call. Azam dan rakan rakan di luar.

So aku keluar rumah, tengok2 ade Azam,ajwad,aru.......... CAMRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAMRY CAMRY CAMRY! ARUL BAWAK CAMRY SIALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! WAAAAAAA!!! Aku dah tak nampak bende lain. Aku nampak camry je. Haha. Then Azam dan ajwad chow pegimaneponakutaktau, aku arul bersama afy menunggu Fammy yang sedang mandi.

So after Fammy siap we all chowtut ke Restoran Hakim. But before that, pergi withdraw duit kejap. Fuck RM2 nak buat apa je?

Sampai kat ATM, tengok2 pekerja pekerja diorang baru nak topup duit dalam mesin.

Fuck. Hari ni ade je la masalah.

So we went to Shell. Thank god ade. Then lepas withdraw, lepak Hakim. Lepak lepak sembang sembang. Then diorang nak pergi CC. Sampai je NB tengok2 semua PC dah ade orang.

Fuck. JK Dot Com.

Menapak je lah dekat tepitapimasihdidalamcc, bersembang dan bersembang. After that we went to kedai ape tah name, makanminum lagi ~_~ . Then a few other friends who just finished with their jamming session came and joined us. Dah ramai gile mase tu. 20 orang ade kot. Eh yeke. Tahla. So bising kejap kat situ. Dah bosan2, berbagai2 idea di cadangkan untuk menghilangkan bosan.
Antaranya :

Pegi sec 13 rumah Isx mandi suwiming pul.
Pegi Akuatik mandi suwiming pul.
Pegi umah Azam main PS3.
Pegi umah Fauzan main Xbox.
Main kejar kejar.
Main nyorok nyorok.
Main kejar kejar dengan kereta.

Aku nak merah tu je. ikiikikikikikikik.............. kau diam.



Last last semua idea ditolak. Ade yang dah nak balik. So aku Fammy Arul bersama Afy pon chow. Since time pon dah 6+, Afy nak g jog dekat tasik 7. Macam cool. So kami balik rumah masing2 kejap (aku balik rumah Fammy lah..gile ke ape nak balik kemuning..iikiiikiikiikiik........... kau diam) , smayang sume, then gerak. This time aku plak drive. Adeh. Aku nak naik camry lagi! Damn!

So pas pikap Arul dan Afy, the 4 of us went to the lake to jog. Jog jog jog jog jog. Tau2 je dah pukul 7+ . Yalle. Encik Borhan dah mg awal2 suh balik before maghrib. Ouhdayum. So tak jadik jog 2nd round. So mule2 anta Arul. Then Arul dengan comelnye boleh tinggal phone dalam kete. So patah balik. Then pegi hanta Afy. Then at her house Fammy pindah kete Arul so takde lah aku kene pegi sec 7 balik nak drop Fammy.

But, before bai bai dengan mereka, Afy dan Fammy telah berjaya menakutkan aku dengan berkata2..

"anep, ni da maghrib doe."
"anep, ni da lambat doe."
"anep, org tue2 kate x elok berada di luar maghrib2 ni."
"anep, ko da la drive sorg2."
"anep, ko tak takut ke.."
"anep, ko nk dgr cite x......aritu kan..."

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

I dont care. Aku mau balik. Even though Afy suruh aku smayang dekat rumah Fammy before gerak, I thought it would be better to just go straight home.

Ontheway nak balik, memang tak tipu bile aku cakap AKU SUMPAH CUAK NAK TENGOK REAR MIRROR! Mane la tau ade............................................

But redah je la kan. Nak buat camne. In my mind, I kept telling myself,

"lepak nep, bwk slow2 suda. u can chittychat with her tonight =)"

So I just focused on that thought. Her. Yeah. Made me calm a little bit.

Then sedar2 je kiri kanan dah gelap. Gelap gile. Pure night. Shit. Cuak balik. Then teringat Fammy kate

"nep, ko pasang la ikim ke ape ke.."

Menggelupet aku carik stesen. MANE STESEN IKIM NI?! KAKAK AKU X SAVE KE?! DAMN! Carik punye carik jumpe stesen macha. Stesen macha ade tapi IKIM xde?! Jk. Kakak aku memang fanatik industan seh. Layan jelah. Rancak plak lagu die. So ok sket drive. Tapi still terpikir sket2. Sesekali aku glance jugak rear mirror. Yelah, kang eksiden plak. Tak pasal2 je nnt. Tengok2, phew, takde pape yang tidak normal xD. Amin.

So aku teruskan perjalanan. A few minutes later sampai lah ke Bukit Naga. Phew. Selamat selamat. A big congrats to you nep. Haha. 1st time drive malam sorang2 bai. Haih. Well, now ade la sikit experience kan. Ikikikikikikik...........kau diam.

Then mandi makan smayang and ape tah lagi. Then online. Bukak ym. Searching searching...

"aih..x on?"

Bosan. Maybe later.

Then around midnight, there was still no sign of her. =(

Called. No answer. Now I'm worried. Is she okay? Or is she just ignoring me? I hope she is ignoring me, at least she is okay. =(

Suddenly I felt so lonely. I........

*PAUSE-NOTE: Aku tau kalau post pasal jk orang malas nak bace. Even dee said post pasal jk is very pathetic. Memang pathetic pon. But tonght, i cant help it. So please bear with me =(

I felt as if suddenly theres nothing fun about the world anymore. Everything sounds boring. Everything feels dull. I just would like to hear her voice. Just once more. Is that so hard?...

h, please be okay. imy.=(